Wednesday, January 09, 2008

2008: Year of the H-Train

No, I'm not adopting a heroin habit.

I went and had lunch with two good friends of mine, Tweener and Lou. We got on the subject that 2007 was rife with disappointment for us at General Blather (I have no idea where they got that impression), and how 2008 was going to be a better year. My reply was a shrug of my shoulders.

That got the cheerleading section going. Tweener said something that not only sounded cool, but made sense. Stop existing, and start living.

Lately, I've hit a wall. I'm going to be turning 33 in a few months, and while I have made big steps in my life, I'm nowhere near where I want to be. I find that I'm comparing myself to the younger, cuter nurses on the floor. Not too long ago, a coworker flapped his yap and inadvertently said that guys aren't interested in girls like me.

Surprisingly, I still speak to him. He should consider himself fortunate that I don't have his testicles hanging from my keychain.

Lately, I've been all about the job, all about the house, all about nurturing "potential" relationships, all about everyone else, and leaving nothing for myself. I used to be hell on wheels. Now, I'm more like flat tires on a Ford Pinto.

Instead of formulating a resolution, I've just decided that I've had it with just existing. This is my year. I'm bringing sexy back, bitches.

Consider yourselves warned.

5 comments:

Melinda said...

Yippee! You go girl! Not interested in girls like you...that's partially true...most of them are interested in bimbos who are easy, and that ain't you!!

Here's to a great 2008!

Spyder said...

"Stop existing, and start living." Amen!

Nuke said...

smart, funny, sarcastic ( a given considering the 1st 2), you carry of a great Halloween costume, you allow friends to party at your house...

You are exactly the type of girl my friends look for (then don't date because they are chicken-shits).

On the other hand, I do applaud your decision to live!!!

Nuke }:-

6502Programmer said...

Interesting.. Jonathan's first three adjectives were exactly what came to mind for me as well. Not having met you, I can't really speak to the costume or party, but smart, funny, and witty would be how I'd describe you..

If anything, those traits, while some of us are all over them like ants on a picnic, can be somewhat intimidating for guys who are lacking in self-confidence.

My advice would be to focus and spend some time on you. Whether it's a little more time working out, learning a new language, taking cooking classes, or learning how to dance (I took up dancing as my marriage fell apart, and still do it as often as I can), do something for you. Preferably something that gets you involved with, meeting, and interacting with other folks.

Or you could go with heroin. It's not like it's terribly destructive or anything.

Nuke said...

I have not had the pleasure of making the lady's acquaintance, I was merely going on pictures of her costume.

Nuke }:-